What happened?

It’s was May and now suddenly it’s August and nothings changed. Procrastination plus, I have become highly skilled at not doing all the things I really should be doing or could be doing and succeeding spectacularly at getting absolutely nothing done. I keep waiting for something interesting to happen and nope, keep looking and nothing has changed.

I am still waiting for them to schedule the op, they have talked to me and talked amoung themselves but so far nothing is happening. I am convinced I will get a call and they will tell me it’s tomorrow and can I drive to Hamilton and be there at 6am. It seems to be the way thing work. So while I am waiting I have been out fungalling when I can and doing very little else. It’s been a super wet winter, not necessarily cold but just torrential downpours and atmospheric rivers just dumping on us. It wipes out the fungi and wipes me out with endless grey wet days.

Gardening has been hard and there is heaps of cleanup to do from winter. The local council trimmed some large street trees and chipped them. They are in huge piles and available to the public, 26 bags later the weeds are covered and the whole garden looks much better. My theory is the weeds that manage to come through the chips will be much easier to pull – who knows if thats true but it works for me. Now how to find a vege garden quick fix.

Good news is that mum is doing well, I went down for 10 days mid June. I had a cough before I went down and almost cancelled but it improved so went ahead with the trip. It got much worse while I was in Christchurch but luckily mum didn’t catch it. Got back and finally went to doc – Bronchitis and they hit me with everything just in case I was going to have surgery. Got better, then worse again, another antibiotic and steroid treatment and finally after almost 50 days I got rid of it. Then they discovered the steroids had given me some serious side effects. They are still trying to figure out how to manage that.

The other good news is that Stu is in remission and the hard work he has put in seems to be keeping the cancer from spreading. He has transformed his body and looks 10 years younger. It’s really inspiring, I couldn’t do it but I can incorporate some of the things he is doing and it feels like spring is the time to do it with all its new growth and new beginnings.

So tuning out the politics, both here and internationally is the first step, it is hard but I am learning to detach from the constant shock, anger and feeling of helplessness at most of the shenanigans and learning to laugh at as much of it as I can. I challenge myself to notice what is wonderful around me and focus on that even if it’s just the neighbours cat deciding to sleep on my head on cold nights. Next step is more exercise which is easier as it’s warming up. State of mind and state of body are inextricably linked so definitely time to work on both. Fingers crossed my next update will have so more good news.