Fragility
It’s when you suddenly get a whack on the head to remind you that life is precious and just a moment away from being gone. It’s been an emotional week with a friend passing away from injuries in an accident, and you try and justify it by saying well he had a long life and would not have wanted to linger, but he also was working full time and didn’t even get a chance to slow down. Then Stu went in for full on heart surgery, the wait was hard with someone in the ward going to the bathroom and not making it. Then another close friend I have known over 45 years in for cancer surgery with the chance of permanently losing mobility. .. and finally one of the most wonderful, full of life, charismatic leaders I have ever known has just days to live and still not even 50. I just keep wishing it was different, that there was a way to make it ok, but it’s not! It’s hell, for the families and for friends who love them. Watching the rain and storm come in, reflecting my mood and state of mind, then like a ray of sunshine piercing the clouds a new life begins. Somehow a new life starting helps me to see the cycle and not just focus on the end. Children give me a whole new perspective and make everything feel possible again. I love babies, they are just amazing bundles of possibilities and smiles and what life is all about.
The Traveling Kiwi 